Guys and Bars

Okay, so here is the deal with guys and bars. The majority of guys will go to a bar with the hopes of getting laid, blown, see tits and get drunk...in that order. The only real guaranty that guys have, is getting drunk. It doesn't take much effort at all to accomplish this. Now here is the reality, guys will say what they think you want to hear in order to accomplish these other goals.

"You are so beautiful" = "I want to fuck you."

"You have the most amazing eyes." = "I want you to look up at me while you blow me."

"You have a great laugh." = "I like to watch your tits bounce when you laugh."

You can't get to know someone in a bar, only who they want you to see. Word of advice to guys, go to the bar with the sole expectation that you are going to have a great time. See a girl you may be interested in, introduce yourself, get a name, find common ground, suggest that you two should meet for coffee or dinner sometime, get a number, leave her alone the rest of the evening.

Here is what could happen, she could be interested in you and wants to know more about you and SHE comes over to you to continue the conversation or the number she gave you was real and you two get together for coffee and actually get to know one another or...the number was fake, she wasn't interested in you and you didn't waste your time.

Go out to have fun and you will succeed. Go out to get laid...have fun with your lotion and tissue later on.

I think the news of Osama's death stirred up some old feelings for me. When I woke up this morning from a very vivid dream, I didn't know where I was. It took me a few minutes to gather myself together and recognize my surroundings. I feel okay now but I'm sure this is just the beginning for things to come.

LDRSHIP

The army lives by many acronyms. DFAC = Place where you eat, PX = Place where you shop, PMCS = Making sure your vehicle is operational. And so on. But one of the acronyms I learned and have tried to maintain for the past 9 years is LDRSHIP.

Loyalty, Duty, Respect, Selfless Service, Honor, Integrity and Personal Courage.

I want to talk about the workplace. My workplace in fact. I work at a group home for troubled youth. Kids who have issues with their families,

with school,

with just being a kid and don't have the appropriate coping skills to deal with everyday issues.

As a staff member in this group home, I try my very best to do what is right for these kids. To help them learn how to deal with hardship and to overcome personal issues.

As for other staff...please leave your drama at the door. Your focus should be on these kids and not your personal life. This job may just be a paycheck for you but this is THEIR lives you are dealing with. What good are you to these kids when you can't even be a positive role model?

All I am really trying to say is, if you have a job that involves the wellbeing of others, take it seriously. Take responsibility. Do your duty!

Thankfully I am not the only staff person that feels this way but there are a few that are selfish and self centered. I hope these kids are not negatively affected by this any more than they already have. They already have enough on their plates as it is.

So it's been a while since I've wrote anything. Again. I must not be very good at this.
In a nutshell, I've been out of the Army for a year now. It's been strange being a full time civilian yet it has also been a positive change for me. I've had more time to focus on myself. I still have my demons though. Not as many as I used to have. Time will tell.

This is kinda neat. I can now blog from my phone. :-)

Hello again

I started this blog a year ago and this makes my fourth entry. I really suck at this.
Well, to get caught up, I'm still working at the same place I last wrote about and I still love it. Having a job I enjoy really changes things for me. Also, I don't worry about money as much as I used to.
I've been losing weight too. 22 lbs since June.
I'm seeing someone. She is perfect for me too.
I don't think I've touched my guitar in months. :(

I'll be sure to write more when I have the time.

Girls, Guitars, Rules and Birthdays

I turn 25 in five days. I bought a guitar and my fingers already hurt. I quit my tele-marketing job. I accepted another job that I truely feel is something I will do for the rest of my life. Thats a good thing.
The big 2-5. Why is everyone reminding me that I'll be a quarter of a century old? At least my car insurrance will go down a bit. I keep thinking about what has gone on in my life in the past ten years. I was 15 and a freshman in highschool. From then to now, I could write a few books on my experiances. Hell, I could write a ton of books just based on the past five years. Ten years doesn't seem all that long but I wonder if the next 10 years will have just as many experiances. With any luck, there will be more good than bad times ahead of me.
Speaking of luck, things have been turning around for me lately. I started a new job. I have great hours and weekends off. I've been dating a lot. It is amazing at just how many people are really out there if you just take a chance and go looking. I've been maintaining a rule though. No sex unless I am in a comitted relationship. That rule has already worked out in my favor. For example, I was dating this girl a month or so ago. I'll call her "B" for privacy purposes. Well, after taking B to dinner and then back to her place for a movie, we made out for a little bit and that was it. We had a fun evening and I didn't want to just jump in the sack with B. Well, I take that back. I REALLY wanted to jump in the sack with her but I restrained myself due to my rule. She seemed impressed with me when I told her about it and said she felt the same way too. I was for sure I was with the right kind of girl and I couldn't wait to see her again. Two weeks later, I found out that she had a threesome with a girl and a guy. I wasn't too upset about it. I was...proud of myself for keeping my rule and not breaking it. I don't want a woman who does those things. I have nothing against that kind of lifestyle but this is my life and that is not what I am looking for.
Like I said, I've been dating a lot and it had been a lot of fun. I've made a lot of new friends too. I feel like my unfair life is becoming fair again. I'm not happy. I'm never happy. But I can now see that I have the ability to become a happy person once again.
Time will tell though.
In the meantime, I am teaching myself to play the guitar and its been a lot of fun. My fingers on my left hand are very raw though. haha. But playing is fun and I get to tune out from everything else for a while.